Last night my brother asked : ‘hey, why did you stop writing your blog? All this happens because of your stupid love story!’

I actually tried writing many times but couldn’t find anything to share. My mind was blocked as if I was lost in dark. And this morning when I visited the site, I realised almost 2 years have passed that I did not write anything. That’s sad! isn’t it?

I replied to my brother: ‘I will write again, sing again and play music again. So many years have passed and now I realised why all the relationships has destroyed all my talents.’

Well I am the one who has let it happen after all. I am the one who allowed good things and the poor thing to happen with me. It’s all about experience eh!

I do regret not having the strength to walk away quickly, I regret not having high standard when it comes to my relationships. By relationships I mean any kind of relationships. Like the way my father treated me and I always feared it. And guess what? You get what you fear.

Now the time has come that I have grown past my fear and also raised my standard where I decide how people get to treat me. I am well aware when to let go and when to confront or just walk away in silence. My mental peace, my desire to be respected by all mean has changed my perspective on how things happen to us.

Earlier I used to think why people do things which I do not deserve?!

Now I know, people would show how they can behave or treat other people. It is me who chooses whether to allow it for myself. I am not here to fix anyone else but, my own behaviour. One small shift in my understanding has made a huge difference. I have learned to decide, take action and be content with my choices.

Even though it took a toll on my health but, I am well and healthy now.

When we allow other people to mistreat us, cheat us, gaslight us, we destroy ourselves. It is not about confronting anybody else but, ourselves. Because we do what we desire. People who tollerate any kind of abuse whether it is emotional, mental or phisycal rage; they suppress a lot of emotions inside and fear to take action as if they were tied down with a heavy stone and thrown in the water to suffocate. Those supressed emotions express themselves with sickness. Because, nobody is stupid enough to ignore the reality forever. The nature will naturally push you to take action and if you don’t do it soon enough, the nature would bring you down to your knees, to sickness, so that you finally find the strength to take action and get rid of an unhealthy environment.

It’s not all that bad! Lessons are priceless. I receive what I allow.

For a healthy life our choices are very important. Fearing of being alone or with less people isn’t worth loosing life on. Living happy and healthy is what we need. When our whole body and mind aligns with this realisation, we receive what we are. We manifest what we have within us.