Sometimes my realisation comes while I am sleeping and while sleeping if I realise something I misinterpreted or something I never thought or understood early on, by the time I wake up in the morning I must have beaten up myself in my sleep itself with my thoughts. I have been thinking about a question: who taught us about past and future and how to desire it? Then last night I got another question: who expected us to be perfect on the first place and taught us that perfection is possible?

Both answers were as: my parents or, close family members. That was the initial answer and then I realised it would be better to say the whole system taught us that. Our parents, their parents and so on and so forth. Most probably when it all started, human didn’t think it would be the greatest illusion they are creating.

When you look at a 0-4 years old baby, you see they are so happy at this moment. But when does it start to change? How it starts to change? What I can recall was always like this: ‘I can’t give you now, I will give it tomorrow’, ‘do you remember yesterday we went to the playground and how you had fun?’, ‘I will take you to the playground tomorrow’, ‘If you stop crying, I will buy you a toy by the weekend’ etc. All these are just small examples.

With this past future lessons we get another very important lesson of Perfection. We were taught: ‘good boys, good girls never do that’, ‘good boys, good girls always do that‘. And honestly we could never be that perfect good boys or good girls because we are put on a pedestal of an unrealistic expectation. But, one benefit happens, we learn how to believe on unrealistic perfections about everything and we expect that to happen as well. This is why the term ‘Perfect’ got a place in our life and in dictionaries.

(wrote- May 2021, publishing after 4years on July 2025)